Part of my Story

A couple years after my son was born I looked in the mirror and couldn’t believe what I saw. I hated the person standing in front of me. My focus was on the extra weight and how exhausted  and stressed out I looked.  I was essentially a robot going through the motions and doing what I needed to survive. I hated my job and I felt so lonely. I was super depressed and my anxiety was through the roof. I tried therapy and medication but it wasn’t working for me.  I knew I had to do something to switch it or I would go down an ugly dark path of no return.

I was in the middle of a very stressful relationship with my son's dad. I knew I had to start taking care of myself even if it was baby steps. The happy, outgoing, friendly and fun Leslie was no longer in this body and I had no clue how to get her back. I wanted to enjoy life but I had no clue how to. 

I started looking online for ways to help me lose the weight.  Thankfully I found a community of women on Instagram that was inclusive and supportive and spoke my language with mermaids, unicorns, glitter and sparkles and all pink everything.  Little by little I was doing the things. I started working out most days even if it was only 15 minutes and changed my eating habits. I was so desperate to lose the weight that I would do anything to get me there. After I put my son down to sleep I would sneak upstairs (we lived at my ex’s moms house) and meal prep  in the dark because I didn’t want to wake up anyone or worse have to answer when asked what do you think you’re doing? It wasn’t my house so I felt weird meal prepping when everyone else was cooking “regular” food. As time went by, I was getting more and more motivated. The weight started coming off and for a couple years I stuck it out and lost over 50 lbs.  People were saying, “You look good” and “awesome job!” but it never went to my head or heart. I just brushed off any compliments or people noticing.  The strangest thing to me was that even after the weight loss, I still saw the same person I saw in the mirror. I still hated myself more than ever. 

Looking back I see that I was still people pleasing and not truly honoring myself. I thought doing what people wanted to get their approval would make me happy but I was wrong. I know that I create my own reality and life doesn’t happen to me. I have a choice and I have power within to change my story. I took my power back one day at a time by realizing and accepting that my life was unmanageable and I needed help and I asked for help wherever I could find it. 

I had a few more rock bottom moments and I gained some of the weight back but even with that, my life today is so much better.  It’s a totally different picture. I love myself more than ever. I took two years (which is a long time for me) to be single and really focus on myself and it’s paid off big time. Peace of mind is priceless. I have my own apartment that is close to my job with better pay and less stress.  I started my own business a few years ago and shifted my business model from product to heart centered service. I got connected to an amazing business mentor that speaks life over my business and inspires me and others. My friends are loving and thoughtful and also keep me accountable.  I love that we are encouraging each other to dream big and inspire others. Opportunities appeared that I never thought would happen and things just get better and better. I am so happy and grateful. The main change had to take place in me before my life could change. I had to realize my worth and build my confidence up. I had to trust myself again and remind myself that I am love, lovable and loved.  I’m still a work in progress.  I hope that sharing my story and putting myself out there inspires other moms to not give up and to find support and help.  Life is way too short and I want to live it to the fullest with no regrets and with those that I love each day.


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My Story

 

Ever since I was a young child, I was always very moody.  Considered ultra sensitive, my anxiety was always through the roof.  As a young adult I got therapy and took prescription drugs which I thought would help.  I even had an as needed anxiety medication I had a panic attack.to keep on me just in case. I just wanted to feel like myself again.I tried different medication and therapists, hypnotherapy, whatever I could find.  When I found out I was pregnant with my son, I decided to stop all medications, even down to over the counter to protect my baby. I liked not taking a bunch of pills daily but I didn’t feel like I was getting any better.  Everyday I put on a face so everyone around me would believe everything was okay when I knew I clearly wasn’t. 


I always clung to a Higher Power for protection and guidance and my faith carried me through many years of uncertainty and very high stress. I was unhappy in my relationships, my job, and more. I felt like my whole life needed a makeover but I had no idea where to even start. One day this lady came into the store where I worked and she shared a new way of thinking.


Now I’m so much happier and feel a million times better overall. My faith in the Universe/Higher Power/God/Spirit grows more and more each day.I am working on my health and wellness and my life has changed drastically. I gained confidence in myself to leave bad relationships, left a job and found a better one (or two).  Most of all I see my dream life vision coming together slowly, yet surely. I’m so excited to help others do the same.I have an amazing support group of awesome women all working together to achieve our dreams. I see that the power of positivity and love is contagious and I’m happy I can share that with the world.  Of course I still have ups and downs but now I have tools to help myself and others that can relate.


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